A lot of information today… So I will jump right to it.
We arrived this morning at 8:00 AM for registration… We were a few minutes earlier than our crew in E Clinic and took a seat. We were not prepared for the whirlwind that was brewing today.
Our primary care nurse, Katie was first on the docket today. She ran through everything with Summer to check her vitals and get her doctor’s basics. After Katie, we were interviewed by our nurse practitioner, Lindsay. We were not getting many answers about the timeline either. I think we got some raised eyebrows at the suggestion of coming back to Peoria for treatment. I should have read between the lines… But I am still running on full optimism.
Dr. Gajjar came in during Lindsay’s interview and he talked with Angela and me about Summer’s cancer and what the plan was. The Dr. is very soft-spoken but exudes confidence in the procedures ahead. During our talk… He dropped several bombs.
- MRI, spinal tap, and a clinical reassessment will all start this Thursday.
- After an MRI here at St. Jude, they would reassess the surgery done at CARLE. He said there is a 40% chance that they may need to operate AGAIN to remove more tumor material. This is done so that Proton treatment will be most effective.
- Spinal Tap will look for loose cancerous cells in Summer’s spinal fluid.
- After the MRI or additional surgery, they will model a proton treatment specifically for her cancer. (Angela wrote it down, I did not.)
- Proton treatment is a “one and done”. Never to be attempted again. This cancer needs to be destroyed during proton treatment, we are here to remove it all. End of statement. If the tumor comes back, we will have problems that I do not want to talk about
- Proton treatment is estimated at 6 to 8 weeks.
- After we finish proton radiation, Summer will have a 5-week break to come home and get her rest before Chemo.
- Chemo Treatment will be done in Memphis only. This will begin after her 5-week break and is estimated at 7 months.
That number smacked all three of us across the face. We asked about Peoria and were told that was not an option.
This means Summer will NOT be coming back to school for the next year. We do need to cancel her lease. Angela and I will need to seriously figure out logistics for the long term. This time between CARLE and here are have been nothing compared to the next 9 months estimated for Summer’s treatment.
We got some lunch… Caught our breath and all joked that we need a group cry. We came back to the room at TriDelta and took a group nap instead.
At about 5 PM we decided a distraction was in order… Instead of sitting around our hotel room moping, we drove over to the Bass Pro Shop at the Pyramid and wasted about an hour looking at fish, going to the observation deck, and catching the epic view of Memphis.
We then decided that we could run over to a small shopping center for Angela to return some shoes. This spring, when we were in Chicago, we picked up some shoes for Aiden at Nordstrom Rack. Within one day, he had a giant leather thread pulling out of them. The boy can destroy clothes by just looking at them. I was going to take them to the Pekin Redwing store for repairs… But Angela wanted to return them. Well, that has been a few months. But whatever… She will carry items for returns for months until we get back to a store from Chicago etc. Of course, they were in our van…. So, tonight, she went into the Memphis Nordstrom Rack for a return.
Nordstrom only allows returns for 45 days. We were well past this. Today has been rough, and I seriously feel like I had to restrain Angela from doing something crazy in the store. She said she was going to find the shoe in the back and swap it out. I told her that I did not want to explain why I had to bail her out of jail in Memphis during Summer’s treatment. I do believe she listened to me… I guess I will find out when I get home and have a shoe that is new or needs to be repaired.
Summer proclaimed that today was a free smoothie day at Smoothie King. We had to tell her that BOGO is not free… It’s just a good deal. Regardless, I am still willing to bend all rules for treats when we are recovering from the news of the day. Angela and Summer got the BOGO… I got to drink from both.
We came back to the room and Summer and I have been watching episode after episode of Iron Chef on Netflix. The night ended well.
Back at it tomorrow.
We did have some other conversations with Dr. Gajjar about “How” “Why” and “What” caused this. He was very professional and talked us down off the parenting cliff. And honestly, Angela and I had another “what if” conversation about being here at St. Jude. Did we make the right call? Should we have done Northwestern or Mayo to stay closer to home?
Ultimately, St. Jude is where we need to be. What sacrifice would you make for your kid? The answer is anything. We will keep knocking back obstacles here and at home day by day.
9 thoughts on “St. Jude 2 Rough Start”
Hi, honey. You are going to get through this; one day at a time. Remember Jesus is there with you. Grandma loves you!!!
You guys will make it through this. You guys are at the best place you could be. I know it’s rough being that far from home. But I know in my heart that Saint Jude will Take care of you. There was a reason why they were able to take you and I believe it’s because Summer will be cured of this cancer. Please reach out if you need anything. I will be down there for one day in August for my Memphis to Peoria run if you would like me to bring anything with me. Just let me know. Thinking of you guys
You are in the best most experienced place and that is what you want! You will adapt to your new life patterns as time goes on.
I continue my prayers for Summer and the test of your family.
Try one of the blues places at Beal street. It’s worth a walk done the street or to grab an awesome bbq meal.
You made the best decision for Summer.
Thinking of you daily and praying with every post I read.
Eric & Angela,
You guys made the best decision for Summer and her long term care and don’t waste a single second trying to second guess. St. Jude’s is world class and experts/specialist in this type of treatment. She is in great hands. Although this is tough news and the beginning stages of her recovery will be hard…..it will eventually start to get better. It’s hard to envision right now but remember that tough times don’t last, but tough people do and the Stahl’s are tough as nails! Every road you travel in life has a few puddles along the way but the days that break you are the days that make you! One day at a time right now and get up tomorrow and go win the day! YOU GOT THIS!!! GO SUMMER!!!
My heartfelt wishes for all. My great niece had a brain tumor. She was one month before she turned 18. There is hope. St Jude helped and was terrific. She has graduated radiology school and has two children. At her dark time we could never imagine all this given her grim diagnosis. Just take one day at a time and have faith and hope.
God brought you right where you need to be. St. Jude is the Patron Saint of Impossible cases. Danny Thomas asked St. Jude to guide him and in return he honored him by building this beacon of hope for children and families. One of my favorite prayers is the prayer to St. Jude. You’re supposed to day it for 9 days as a Novena with your intention. I will start my novena today for a complete healing for Summer. Even us lazy, haven’t been to mass in years Catholics know a good prayer when we see it! And you don’t have to be Catholic to say it. You just need a little faith!
O Holy St Jude!
Apostle and Martyr,
great in virtue and rich in miracles,
near kinsman of Jesus Christ,
faithful intercessor for all who invoke you,
special patron in time of need;
to you I have recourse from the depth of my heart,
and humbly beg you,
to whom God has given such great power,
to come to my assistance;
help me now in my urgent need and grant my earnest petition.
I will never forget thy graces and favors you obtain for me
and I will do my utmost to spread devotion to you. Amen.
St. Jude, pray for us and all who honor thee and invoke thy aid.
(Say 3 Our Father’s, 3 Hail Mary’s, and 3 Glory Be’s after this)
Eric and Angela, I laughed and cried after reading. We love you all, we are praying for you all. God is good, Keep the faith.
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